Back Stairwell
I've chosen to take the stairs.
It's harder, but quicker
than waiting for the elevator
which seems eternally stuck on R-Roof.
And I'm late, the last of the parents
who don't send a stand-in.
I'm running, propelled by a kind of demon
求and embarrassed by my lateness-
up the back stairs of the synagogue,
when a window appears in the shaft,
on the wall of the stairwell;
a real window, like a painting on a wall
through which you can see the sky.
The shattered blue leans in, breaks
through the wall; it leaves
an opening, a sudden shudder, a frisson
like a rustle of eternity
shattered in the vista of receding
clouds, antennae, water towers#
and I think we are not far from ecstasy
even in the interior.
I can't get my son to hold the banister
as we descend the stairs;
a look of sheer defiance clouds his face,
the same boy who, the other night
I watched shuffle and backpedal and nearly fall,
down the escalator, over
the rapids of the raw-toothed
edges of the blades;
his hands, his attention, occupied
by a rabbit samurai Ninja turtle
and Krang, the bodiless brain.
I gauged the dive I would need
to catch him if he fell:
a flat out floating horizontal grab
I couldn't even have managed in my youth.