The time that I've wasted is my biggest regret
   Spent in these places I will never forget.
Just sitting and thinking about the things that I've done
   The crying, the laughing, the hurt and the fun.

Now it's just me and my hard driven guilt
   Behind a wall of emptiness I allowed to be built.
I'm trapped in my body, just wanting to run
   Back to my youth with its laughter and fun.

But the chase is over and there's no place to hide
   Everything is gone, including my pride.
With reality suddenly right in my face
   I'm scared, alone and stuck in this place.

Now memories of the past flash through my head
   And the pain is obvious by the tears that I shed.
I ask myself why and where I went wrong
   I guess I was weak when I had to be strong.

Living for the drugs and the wings I had grown
   My feelings were lost, afraid to be shown.
As I look at my past it's so easy to see
   The fear that I had, afraid to be me.

I'd pretend to be rugged, so fast and so cool
   When actually lost like a blinded old fool.
I'm getting too old for this tiresome game
   Of acting real hard with no sense of shame.

It's time that I change and get on with my life
   Fulfilling my dreams for a family and wife.
What my future will hold I really don't know
   But the years that I've wasted are starting to show.

I just live for the day when I'll get a new start
   nd the dreams I still hold deep in my heart.
I hope I can make it, I at least have to try
   Because I'm heading toward death, and I don't want to die.